Saturday, October 17, 2015

21 weeks and 2 or 3 days

hey there! you are the size of a carrot and much to our surprise and delight at the ultrasound this monday we discovered you are a girl! wow! we are still in a bit of shock although your brother and I have got you two little newborn girl outfits and I took a bunch of hand me down boy clothes I had gathered but were not your brothers too the goodwill.  your poor brother has a tummy bug today and is napping right now. I'm worried about him, worried I will get it, worried it will make you having problems inside of me. worry worry worry...its what I do really well. it would help if you dad was not in bend today at a science teacher conference but that is the way it worked out.
its funny...I can't really start thinking about names for you yet aside from Margaret nickname Margo. Maybe when I have adjusted to the idea of you being a girl and not a boy for a few more days I will be able to come up with some names.
I am thinking of painting your room teal and bright gray and doing a floppy rabbit and aspen tree theme with some pops of yellow. first we have to get your brother healthy though! we should go to the pumpkin patch very soon as halloween is a few weeks away. your brother is going to be a dino/dragon and I am a "princess" and your dad is going to be godizillia I think? I guess we will see how it all works out.

I can feel you move around every day now. You are head down with your bum to my right hip and I feel your feet and hands kicking. You seem to consistantly be awake from about 8pm to 11pm....let's not make that a habbit when you are outside me ok? It is reassurign to feel you move each day...we are a little past the half way point but your arrival still seems pretty far off although I know it will be here before we know it.

Saturday, September 26, 2015

18 weeks and 2 or 3 days

Hey #2...you don't have the relaxed womb life of your big brother do you...mom working full time, trying to keep up with your brother who is almost 4 years old. You must really dislike junk food...particularly sugar as i just still don't want any and I mean any fast food and basically anything with sugar makes me feel icky. Sometimes I want to eat..most days I just force myself too. Sometimes you want soup, or shrimp or lentil based things or fruit. lots and lots of fruit. I don't want meat...sometimes I don't even want cheese. I only throw up about once a week at this point and go back and forth between 138 and 140 pounds. My tummy with you looks about as big as it did at 6 months with your brother but they say that is normal. I think I feel your butt moving sometimes but other times you seem very quite compared to your big brother and that freaks me out. We are done with our blood gentic tests and you were low risk for birth defects so good for you:) We will have your gender ultrasound in two or three weeks and double check you look all put together correctly. At the last midwife app you "felt" the right size and place and your heartbeat was easy to find. I have boy clothes stock piled up...there is no way your are girl right? Oh well...what would I do with a girl anyway.you just keep growing...see if you could get a little more intrested in food ok? oh this week you are the size of a bell pepper

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

can't have just one... baby blueberry

hey baby blueberry,
that's what your big brother has been calling you. I'm 8 ish (give or take) weeks pregnant with you. Much like your brother you make the task of eating awful. Each pregnancy is different they say...but this sickness thing remains the same as with Drew. I throw up about once a day...although at totally random times. I learned the hard way with your bother that I HAVE to keep eating or I will loose a ton of weight and just get sicker and sicker. Therefore, when I am not paying attention to your brother my sole task in life is forcing myself to eat and then keeping that food in my tummy.  80% of the time I feel like I have punched in the stomach. You better be a cute kid! I had a feeling it was going to be like this again so I may have indulged every food whim I had before getting pregnant with you. needless to say I have more weigh on me to burn this time around. I think I have only lost about two pounds in the last two months although not having a reliable scale it's hard to know. I could list the many food I don't want to eat right now...but that would make me ill. I can say I am able to eat cherries and almonds and watermelon ok. All food that end up being high in B6...so I went and got some b6 pills to see if that helps. I'll feel so sick for a few days, then have a day when I feel just fine and then it's back to ick again. The midwives won't see us for another 3 weeks, I think you'll be 11 weeks on the day we see them based on my guesses. I know they till listen for your heart beat but seeing that they don't like doing unnecessary ultrasounds I'm not sure if I will get one telling me just how far long you are...although I feel like they will need to figure out how big you are somehow!
Since we are on summer vacation, and I force your brother to nap...na he still likes napping thank god, we are getting way more sleep then I did with your brother. this has left me less exhausted than last time which is good...but frankly I would be willing to feel more tired in exchange for feeling less sick. not trying to guilt you...just saying how it is.  Got to figure you are most likley a boy...i'll have a hard time beliving it it if at some point they say you are a girl.
Let me know if you have ideas for a good name for you

Saturday, March 9, 2013

16 months

tomorrow Drew is 16 months old
over the winter we have had our ups and downs with him being sick and healthy just like any toddler, right now he seems to have a sour stomach but wants to eat and is in a good mood.

Drew loves to:
dance around
listen to music
play with anything that makes music
wave scarves around as he dances

he is very good at pressing the individual buttons or keys on his toys that make music to get unique sounds...it seems like he is being delibrate about what he pushes

Drew is very active and loves to run run run and walk and play everywhere. he spins in circles till he falls down, stomps his feet and claps his hands, he loves to play chase where you pretend to chase him around the house or he likes to pretend the dogs are chasing him. He can walk backwards he almost never crawls...only when pushing his toy cars and trucks around

he loves anything with wheels
he loves balls
he loves going to swim class
he loves swinging at the park and exploring the playground
sometimes he likes going down the slide

he loves his dogs and all dogs for that matter

he is friendly and goodnatured and kind and is happy to share his toys....he isn't into the "mine" phase yet

he loves bathtime and his duck toys and says quack quack
he says ba for bottle
can sign for milk
can sign for water
can sign for more and all done
mama and dada
occasionaly says something that sounds like ball
says bye and waves good bye

he loves bubbles and hugs and being swung upside down....sometimes he wants me to carry him but often he wants to walk and is not big on holding our hands but we make him
loves to pull things out of the cabinets and empty his bookshelf...sometimes will put stuff away on his own

can stack rings and cups...although better at the rings, can minpulate all the bottons and levers on the pop up toy, not into the shape sorter yet

at last check up he was 32.5 inches and 21 + pounds and I think he has gained for in the last month. sometimes he is a good eater and sometimes it is a real battle
he likes these foods:
fruit and oatmeal
fruit and veggie pouches
black olives
anything with cheese
mac and cheese
grilled cheese sandwiches
yogurt
fried eggs
goldfish crackers
fruit: canned apples, pears, peach, mandrin orange, raspberries blue berries
not big on veggies if not mixed with fruit
french fries
pita chips
rice and soy sauce
noodles with and without spaggitti sacue
perogies
likes to eat bits of our barritos
talipia
smoke salmon (but I'm going to stop giving it to him till he is older)
sometimes waffles and pancakes sometimes not

does not like:
real bannana
food that are not very soft aside from a few cracker items

he drinks about 20 oz of lactose free milk a day...he still drinks from a bottle, will drink water from a spippy or straw cup but rather have milk in the bottle

takes one nap a day for about 2 hours to 2 1/2 hours
has to sleep with sound machine, loves his blanket like thing/zippy...not really attached to any stuffed animals  tends to go to bed around 8:30pm and sleep till about 7 to 7:30am. Some times sleeps through the night and sometimes still wakes in the night  will NOT sleep in bed with us, not that we try or let him except when he is really sick or we are having a really bad night

Has all his molars though although the top ones need to move down some still, has bottom two eye teeth through one all the way pushed up and one half pushed up...both of the top eye teeth are cutting right now... don't seem to hurt him but do seem to make him stuffy and give him a cough. his top teeth move way slower than his bottom teeth but don't seem to hurt as much

overall he is just a happy outgoing loving boy that loves adventure and doing things. I love him work that I can even comprehend

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

new tricks

this is not your official ten month post....we both have had a tummy bug over the last week so I'm a bit behind but I wanted to write that two weeks ago you learned how to clap, yesterday you started doing something like a wave, a few days ago you figured out how to throw things on purpose and thorw a ball for yoruself and all the toys off your high chair. You can find a toy I hide under a cup or washcloth you crawl so fast, and pull up everywhere and do a little crusing and are doing this cute funny bear crawl where you crawl on your hands and feet like a bear walk! you are also kind of clingy the last week and some nights fuss every hour or so and other nights go an four hours between fussing.I guess the nights you fuss a lot your brain is working hard on your new skills. I love you so much, you are growing and changing and learning so much so fast!

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Your 8th and 9th month

Hi baby bear,
I must have gotten off track in counting months somewhere along the line... in 7 days you will be 9 months old! Your such a big boy!  We have had a fun and busy summer and mostly have a month left of summer vacation.
On the 2nd of July we went to Denver, just you and me without your dad to see your grandma. We had a nice visit but of course you got a bad cold while we were there! But we still had fun, we saw Linda and Haliey and Katie and Heather and Jamie on the fourth and had a little picnic... then twice your grandma and I took you swimming for the first time, you did not like areas were the water was cold but you loved part of the pools where it was warmer and really loved the lazy river. you were kicking your legs and splashing your hands like you were going to be a champion swimmer as I floated you down the river.

During July we have hung out with Rebecca and Mac a lot and Kori and Swayer and Nikki and Moe. We also see Michelle and Anja sometimes. We went to the zoo three times, went berry picking twice, go swinging at the park have picnics with Nikki and Moe, went to mommy mattine and play play play.  It has been fun but also pretty tiring some days!

You like being with other people and epically older babies and toddlers and pre-schoolers, you like watching what they can do and I know you dream of being able to run and play.

What you can do is crawl really really well! and sit yourself up and pull yourself up to standing and even scoot a little on pieces of furniture. I can't believe how fast you can crawl...you want to crawl everywhere, on the carpet, on the hardwood floor, in the grass, in the dirt on the beach, everywhere!  I have you wear little kneepads made out of socks you you don't scrape up your knees too bad. you crawl from one end of the house to the other and like to play in the dog's water bowls, you like to play with the broom and bang on the floors or anything else you can to feel the vibrations and here the noise.

you don't seem to like any one toy for long, you rather just explore. I want to find you a push toy to walk along with.  even the bouncer doesn't seem to entertain you for long. You like chasing things that roll around the house and bang bang banging things.

It is so hard to change your diaper cuse you turn over and wiggle and then crawl away!

I'm adding more on 8/25 now...so you are 9 months and two weeks. You are getting much better at eating solids, especially dinner. I need to be better about giving you lunch and I guess also breakfast these are the foods you have tried:
all smooshed
apples
banana
pumpkin
butternut squash
zuchinni
pear
peach
blueberry
carrot
purple carrot
approcot
avacado (although you don't like it anymore)
plums (not a big fan)
a tinny bit of raspberry (you liked it) and a tinny bit of cantaloupe
and egg yolk! you loved that!

you are not so great at eating "finger foods' you gag and throw up...you can do puffs if you haven't had a bunch of liquids for half an hour before. we are going to try some yogurht this weekend  and then maybe some cottage cheese.
You are not eating in the bumbo anymore but in your high chair and you love it when we take it outside and eat al fresco :)

You LOVE watching the chickens and you love love love dogs! They make you laugh and smile

You are getting ticklish and like having raspberries blown on your belly

You have a cookie monster doll that makes you laugh and laugh and you like to chew on power cords

You have EIGHT teeth! and are drooling a ton so maybe those moalrs are on their way....ugg not looking forward to that. I am going to get a amber teething necklace... I hope that helps some

Your sleeping is sometimes good and sometimes bad.
Most nights you wake up two to three times, some nights once, some nights more. When you wake we usally feed you a bottle and rock you or bounce you back to sleep. We are not supposed to feed you during the night more than once says the Dr. but I can't stand the crying and I think you are hungry. I am not going to go into how conflicted I am about sleep training here...that can be a separate letter. So far you are still naping twice a day for anywhere from 40min to two hours. You are able to be awake for about 3 to 3 1/2 hours at a time before you melt down.  You go to bed somewhere between 8:30 and 9pm and wake up somewhere between 6:30 ad 7:30am (typically between 6:45-7:15am)
You are starting to fight going to bed and sometimes scream and then pull yourself up to standing and suffle around your crib instead of going to sleep. Then you get mad that you are stuck standing up and can't settle down. It drives me nuts. I hope by my next entry that will have passed. You seem to have a hard time falling alseep in the car and have to cry for about 20 min now...You rather be alseep in the crib or pack and play. You don't like being in bed with us and haven't sleep in the bed with us for a long time.

You tend to eat 4oz at a time of milk about every two and half hours during the day...about 6 bottles during the day and two at night...so about 32oz a day. I think that is ok/good.

You love to babble and can say dada, mama, baba, nigh nigh something that sounds like dogie and tons of other sounds, you are clicking your tounge this week and sticking it out the sides of your mouth so you look funny. I don't know if you really are using those sounds as words but you can say them.

You are a happy camper most of the time, you are social and active and interested in the world around you. So far you don't mind other people and you are good about being at daycare. I wonder if/when you will get bad separation anxiety.

You still love books, especially Barnyard Dance, Busy Chickens, Chugga Chugga Choo Choo, the going to bed book and good night moon to name a few.
We are finishing up a summer reading program and I hope to get you a liabary onesie!

that is all for now but I'm sure I'll have plenty more to add later on.
Love your mama

Saturday, June 23, 2012

your 7th month

man you have been sick a lot lately. You had that bad cold and ear infection and did not like taking your antibotics. I had to put you in the bouncer with water running and the music playing and get behind you to get you to take the antibotics but you got them down and the ear infection and cold went away. The really really bad part was three days long and then after a week from the start of you getting sick you were doing a lot better although you have a lingering cough. Then a few weeks went by and you were pretty healthy and really not much happened no big changes, same with daycare and eating and such...well I take that back you were doing better eating your solids including rice cereal mix mixed with avocado, pear and sweet potato.

Then we had a bad run of luck...the fridge died (not so bad) then I got rear-ended while you were home napping and there was damage to my car that I am STILL waiting to have fixed up and my back was pretty sore from being hit. Then I was holding you and touched something hot on the grill and shook my hand and lost my wedding band but not my engagement ring. Then the ENTIRE daycare came down with Hand foot and mouth...you were basically the last one to get it and you also had a cold. It was sooo gross and creepy with the blisters all over your body and I felt so bad for you and you were miserable for about 3 days and unhappy for another 5. You are healing up very well though and have no scars on your face but may have some temporary scars on your butt and feet and ankles.

Strangely enough after getting the HFM you now HATE avocado but love sweet potato, and pears and squash and are getting better at eating if we put you in the bumbo. You will also eat some rice cereal now and then but you rather have the straight fruit and sweet veggies. You like chewing on some rice crackers called mum mums although you do more gumming of them than eating them.

Then while you had the HFM your top two teeth started coming down hard and painful. Ugg the look awful and are moving so much more slowly than the bottom teeth. then to my complete surprise I realized the next two bottom teeth were coming through also! Now the bottom left is through all the way, the bottom right mostly through and the top two have pushed through but the whole process is a lot slower and more painful looking with the top teeth. You have six teeth!

Then we can talk about sitting. You were not really willing to do it for more than a minute then towards the end of the HFM you became a sitting master, basically you wouldn't do it till you could do it well. Now you sit quite well and if you want to can do it for a while though you tend to tip yourself over so you can play on your tummy. You don't seem too bothered when you tip over.  Now, in the last week, you are up on your hands and knees rocking back and forth and doing an army crawl thing. You can almost push yourself up to a sitting position, you can hold yourself up while standing for a moment if you can hold onto something...you tried to pull yourself up to standing while at Calvins graduation by using the folding chair in front of us.  Such HUGE changes soooo fast! I'm overwhelmed.   You are also "talking" a lot more and saying Da da da although i don't think you are actually calling for your daddy.

When you have not been sick you have been pretty darn happy and you love laughing at your doggies, playing with things that play music and spin and light up! You still love the exersacuser and love to jump up and down in it. You can grab thing so well and have a very very strong grip. You seem to have such good control with your hands. You really enjoy having books read to you and you like shaking things, crumpling things and hitting things.

for the last week that you have not been sick you have been an eating machine and sometimes will even drink five or six ounces at a time. You still like to eat twice during the night.

Sleep: I was going to write that it has gotten a lot better since my month six post (minus the sick nights) but then last night you had a terrible night again. You had one night right before the HFM where you slept from 8:30pm-5:20am without waking then ate and went back to sleep till 7am. That was a one night fluke. But we were to only waking twice a night and you would eat and go back to sleep. Sometimes if you cry out in-between I can go pat your back and you go back to sleep. Then your grandma Cindy came to visit and your dad and I went away for one night and you only woke once and then for the next two nights you only woke once, then for the next few you woke twice to eat, then twice to eat, once to be held and then last night you were awake a TON...not upset but like you were ready to be awake and play. You had a really hard time settling down. I hope it is temporary and had to do with all these huge development leaps you are making. It is really hard on your dad and I to be up so much and I was soooooo happy that you were only waking twice a night. Could we please please go back to that?!!!!

the one good thing about your cold and ear infection is that we were able to stop swaddling you and put you into that $40 zippy thing I talked about. You seem to like it and it works for you to help you sleep and you can move around in it and you can were it at daycare.  

I am done with school now and on summer vacation and we are trying to figure out what to do for daycare for next year. It is hard knowing what is the right thing to do! I just want you to be happy and healthy and well cared for. making these big choices for your little life is so scary a lot of the time and I am trying my best but I worry I don't make the right choices sometimes. But no one can be perfect. I keep repeating it doesn't have to be perfect, it just has to be good enough and with love.